The waiting game
You get to a point where all you do is hurry up and wait. Then it's rush rush rush and hurry up and wait. Go go go... and, you guessed it, hurry up and wait.
I learned a long time ago never to pray and ask for patience. Why? Because then the Lord gives you opportunities to be patient. No Thank You! Well, it seems like the Lord wants to instill that quality in me any way. We know that this process will take quite a while from start to finish. The part we are in now is easy, it's a completely predefined amount of time. It's after this part that it gets crazy.
We knew it would take nine weeks to complete our classes. We have three classes left. We knew that during that time certain things would have to be done. Easy. After that then it's like an anything goes type of game.
We could get a placement instantly, or we could wait a few months. Most people do not think we will wait very long at all, but there is a small part of me that is doubtful we will ever get placed. I know that NEVER is really not true, but sometimes in the slow moments it can feel like that.
We still have lots of preparations to do. Still lots of little things that can be done. However we will quickly arrive at a point where we can't do anything at all, but wait.
After we do get a placement, watch out world it's gonna be a whirlwind! From car-seats, to toys, to clothing, to possibly more than one bed, to strollers, to simply a run to the store to get kid friendly food! We have been warned that no matter what, there will be a midnight run to Wal-Mart the day we get a placement. Who wants to volunteer for that job? Anyone?
So many people have asked us what we might need or what can they do. Well for now there is a lot that we don't know. We have a crib that converts to a toddler bed, thank you friends! We have a high chair and possibly some car-seats on the way as well. From there it all depends on what age our child will be. We know we will have a little person in our home, but how little is yet to be determined. When it happens though, my husband is convinced he will start a massive social media and texting spree to get the news out and tell anyone who will listen.
I know that God's timing is perfect, and that he works ALL THINGS together for the good of those who love Him. I know I am learning valuable lessons in patience, and that I should enjoy these last few months together with out children. But man, sometimes I just wish the future was now! I guess there will always be something to look forward to, the next weekend, summer break, court date, adoption hearing, starting the process again, you name it! We will always be waiting for something big to happen. I am working on being content and some days are easier than others. I know that when we finally are matched with a child it will be a very overwhelming experience and there will be days I need a break and some time to slow down and breathe.
Until then though... we hurry up and wait.
I learned a long time ago never to pray and ask for patience. Why? Because then the Lord gives you opportunities to be patient. No Thank You! Well, it seems like the Lord wants to instill that quality in me any way. We know that this process will take quite a while from start to finish. The part we are in now is easy, it's a completely predefined amount of time. It's after this part that it gets crazy.
We knew it would take nine weeks to complete our classes. We have three classes left. We knew that during that time certain things would have to be done. Easy. After that then it's like an anything goes type of game.
We could get a placement instantly, or we could wait a few months. Most people do not think we will wait very long at all, but there is a small part of me that is doubtful we will ever get placed. I know that NEVER is really not true, but sometimes in the slow moments it can feel like that.
We still have lots of preparations to do. Still lots of little things that can be done. However we will quickly arrive at a point where we can't do anything at all, but wait.
After we do get a placement, watch out world it's gonna be a whirlwind! From car-seats, to toys, to clothing, to possibly more than one bed, to strollers, to simply a run to the store to get kid friendly food! We have been warned that no matter what, there will be a midnight run to Wal-Mart the day we get a placement. Who wants to volunteer for that job? Anyone?
So many people have asked us what we might need or what can they do. Well for now there is a lot that we don't know. We have a crib that converts to a toddler bed, thank you friends! We have a high chair and possibly some car-seats on the way as well. From there it all depends on what age our child will be. We know we will have a little person in our home, but how little is yet to be determined. When it happens though, my husband is convinced he will start a massive social media and texting spree to get the news out and tell anyone who will listen.
I know that God's timing is perfect, and that he works ALL THINGS together for the good of those who love Him. I know I am learning valuable lessons in patience, and that I should enjoy these last few months together with out children. But man, sometimes I just wish the future was now! I guess there will always be something to look forward to, the next weekend, summer break, court date, adoption hearing, starting the process again, you name it! We will always be waiting for something big to happen. I am working on being content and some days are easier than others. I know that when we finally are matched with a child it will be a very overwhelming experience and there will be days I need a break and some time to slow down and breathe.
Until then though... we hurry up and wait.
When mom and dad found out they were getting me, they were at bowling league. After that, at 9 pm, they made a run to Kmart to make sure they at least had the necessities. Thank goodness for Easter Seals or I wouldnt have had a car seat to ride home from Champaign in, or a crib to sleep in. My sister was much easier to plan for 4 years later as they already knew what to expect. If you get the chance, you should talk to mom about it. Yes its been 24 years and times have definitely changed, but somehow, things have remained the same. Good luck!!
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