Why I hate our Tuesday night classes and why the Wednesdays after tend to suck...
I love our classes, and I hate them with a bloody passion sometimes! (Thank you Ron from Harry Potter) They give me so so much to think about and I find that all day Wednesday I am processing and obsessing and not able to focus on much else for long periods of time.
Let's start with the positive;
1. We learn something new every time we go.
2. We get to ask all of the questions we want
3. We learn from the experiences of our trainer and the others in our class
4. We get a deeper sense of what will be expected of us and what we are getting into
5. Each week we go we feel a litter bit closer to our goal of getting a child in our home
Now the downside, which really only seems to be a downside for me and not for my husband...
1. I HATE the fact of being faced with some of the harsh realities that these children go through
2. I hate thinking about the length of time this process could potentially take us
3. I hate thinking about that fact that we will get super attached and could have it all taken away
4. I (sometimes and sometimes not, more on this in a later post) hate thinking about birth families, what they have done, how many rights they will continue to have, and having to be super nice to them and trying to help them get this child, that will be in my house whom I will become attached to and love, back into their own houses. Seems kind of counterproductive right? Yeah....
So why keep going with this grueling process? Simple; it's what we are supposed to do. Moses was supposed to lead the people to the Promised Land, Noah was supposed to build an ark and save humanity, Abraham was supposed to be the father of a great nation, Mary was supposed to bring the savior of the world into the world. All very ordinary people, all clueless about how their lives would go until an encounter with the Almighty happened in their lives. All impacted the world we live in today and all of the people in the world.
Now don't get me wrong I am no way comparing us with these great heroes of the Bible. However these things I know are true. They were all plain simple people who wanted to live a Godly life. Their lives were in no way easy. In fact if there were on Earth today I think that they would tell you that after their encounter with God things got a whole lot more complicated. Their lives were difficult, they were outcasts among their people, yet God chose them for very specific reasons. Because they followed His will, their lives had great impact. Their lives touched millions, their lives meant something greater, but greater still, their lives pointed to the power of the Almighty.
I have prayed over and over when I can't sleep at night, or I can't focus at work, or I'm in a meeting "Lord let this whole experience work in a way that it can only bring You glory." That's a rough thing to think about. I hope that it means that an adoption works out, and a child (or children) is placed in our lives when there was no way they humanly should have been. I hope it means people seeing that the God of the universe is STILL the God of the universe. I hope it means that people can only look at and hear our story and think wow, God was and is with them. But I also know that that means pain, it means trials, it means at times things looking pretty bleak. But I know that the Lord's timing is right, His timing is perfect and He has a plan that holds everything together.
The song that often comes to mind here is "Blessed be the Name" if you know it you know what a powerful song it can be. The words I have been thinking of lately are "You give and take away, you give and take away, my heart will choose to say Lord Blessed be your name." I know in my heart that this is going to be tough. Honestly it's going to down right suck sometimes... But no matter what, I will choose to say "Lord Blessed be Your name!"
Let's start with the positive;
1. We learn something new every time we go.
2. We get to ask all of the questions we want
3. We learn from the experiences of our trainer and the others in our class
4. We get a deeper sense of what will be expected of us and what we are getting into
5. Each week we go we feel a litter bit closer to our goal of getting a child in our home
Now the downside, which really only seems to be a downside for me and not for my husband...
1. I HATE the fact of being faced with some of the harsh realities that these children go through
2. I hate thinking about the length of time this process could potentially take us
3. I hate thinking about that fact that we will get super attached and could have it all taken away
4. I (sometimes and sometimes not, more on this in a later post) hate thinking about birth families, what they have done, how many rights they will continue to have, and having to be super nice to them and trying to help them get this child, that will be in my house whom I will become attached to and love, back into their own houses. Seems kind of counterproductive right? Yeah....
So why keep going with this grueling process? Simple; it's what we are supposed to do. Moses was supposed to lead the people to the Promised Land, Noah was supposed to build an ark and save humanity, Abraham was supposed to be the father of a great nation, Mary was supposed to bring the savior of the world into the world. All very ordinary people, all clueless about how their lives would go until an encounter with the Almighty happened in their lives. All impacted the world we live in today and all of the people in the world.
Now don't get me wrong I am no way comparing us with these great heroes of the Bible. However these things I know are true. They were all plain simple people who wanted to live a Godly life. Their lives were in no way easy. In fact if there were on Earth today I think that they would tell you that after their encounter with God things got a whole lot more complicated. Their lives were difficult, they were outcasts among their people, yet God chose them for very specific reasons. Because they followed His will, their lives had great impact. Their lives touched millions, their lives meant something greater, but greater still, their lives pointed to the power of the Almighty.
I have prayed over and over when I can't sleep at night, or I can't focus at work, or I'm in a meeting "Lord let this whole experience work in a way that it can only bring You glory." That's a rough thing to think about. I hope that it means that an adoption works out, and a child (or children) is placed in our lives when there was no way they humanly should have been. I hope it means people seeing that the God of the universe is STILL the God of the universe. I hope it means that people can only look at and hear our story and think wow, God was and is with them. But I also know that that means pain, it means trials, it means at times things looking pretty bleak. But I know that the Lord's timing is right, His timing is perfect and He has a plan that holds everything together.
The song that often comes to mind here is "Blessed be the Name" if you know it you know what a powerful song it can be. The words I have been thinking of lately are "You give and take away, you give and take away, my heart will choose to say Lord Blessed be your name." I know in my heart that this is going to be tough. Honestly it's going to down right suck sometimes... But no matter what, I will choose to say "Lord Blessed be Your name!"
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