Thy Will by Hillary Scott

It has been a year since we said good-bye to our son. He is doing well and is very happy in his home. We are coming along with the healing process. It's been a long year and then again it seems impossible that a year has passed so quickly.  We have had so many changes in our life that I can't keep track of all of them. 
Just recently I have come across a song that I have fallen in love with. And yet, as much as I love this song I hate the message. It's one that is hard for me to swallow, and one that I don't want to believe in. In many ways it expresses my feelings about this situation perfectly. I have dealt with a lot of anger this year and am in no way on the other side of that. However I am starting to be at the point where I can compartmentalize my anger over the situation and move on to a relationship with other areas of my faith. I can't begin to explain that to you, perhaps someday I will understand it myself. While I have had many small understandings about the grief process over this last year I haven't had some grand revelation that magically makes me feel better. However, I know that we are making progress, and someday we will be "okay" with the situation. Until then... "Thy will be done."

Thy Will, by Hillary Scott.
I'm so confused
I know I heard you loud and clear
So, I followed through
Somehow I ended up here
I don't wanna think
I may never understand
That my broken heart is a part of your plan
When I try to pray
All I've got is hurt and these four words

Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done

I know you're good
But this don't feel good right now
And I know you think
Of things I could never think about
It's hard to count it all joy
Distracted by the noise
Just trying to make sense
Of all your promises
Sometimes I gotta stop
Remember that you're God
And I am not

So
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will

I know you see me
I know you hear me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Goodness you have in store
I know you hear me
I know you see me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Good news you have in store

So, thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done

I know you see me
I know you hear me, Lord

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